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Posted by: krymrgn
« on: February 08, 2021, 03:33:37 pm »


I learned something today. I was upgrading my word jar to be a little more user friendly and I found my thoughts scolding me. Like, "you should be doing the writing instead of playing with words" "You are wasting time on fun"

Yes, I actually said to myself I was wasting time on fun. So as I became aware that I was doing this to myself for some reason, I actively worked to stop it. The way my brain works is like a boy scout "Machine" going into every possible scenario or negative thought and killing it by logically addressing it.

I.e. Wasting time on fun is not possible for without breaks of levity one can not return to focus clearly. You'll be all wound up.
Playing with words, IS being creative and actively working to make my writing via vocabular better. So this, I am not wasting time for I am learning in a creative way which will enhance my work. Any time-stress or word-count stress is completely put on myself by myself- so "I" can easily drop it. Or turn it into a positive- Hey! I've got... instead of, you only have...

Then there is this weird little guilt guy saying: you should be making money for the household- because the situation has changed and I am now an at home care giver full time- so that blows that out of the water and I have already addressed that issue as well-  Sometimes I even have to run down the chores I've done or help given to ease the guilt for sitting and writing.

All of which is my own mind sabotaging myself. maybe it is a type of writer's block too. What I do know, is that I finished updating my word jar having to re rewrite all the words, which helped me remember them. And it was fun. Both relaxed me and were inspiring to use the words- thus- write.

I think the main thing is to have fun, and if the writing is therapeutic or part of survival~ don't let any negative thought pattern hold you back. Sometimes it takes some work, but you can do it!

"Release your inhibitions feel the wind on your skin~"

K~